Wednesday, October 5, 2011

心。。。痛死了

就那么最后一张全家福。。

真的不相信你会这样走了。。。
不是已经说好脚好了以后要踏脚车吗?
不是已经说好脚好了以后要驾一辆比较好的车吗?
不是已经说好脚好了以后要回中国吗?
不是已经想好你的脚好了以后会一起做很多很多的事吗?
你怎么可以不交待一声的这么就走了。。
太过分了!

你可以在等一等吗?
为什么那么急着去找婆婆呢?
我们要怎么办,没有你我真的很不习惯。。
你可以再叫我吃饭吗?就那么最后一次。。一次就好 ='(
就叫我帮你倒垃圾。。叫我的名字。。

每当我赢了个奖牌回来只有你会称赞我。。
不管是第几名,你都说好!只有你。。
所以每次的每次我都会尽力的跑。。尽力的跑。。
你叫我以后要跑给谁看呢。。

你不是说那房间很冷吗。。你怎么又要回到那边。。
你很痛吗?还是要说什么?怎么一直抓着爸爸的手,抓得好紧。。
我们都在啊。。在陪着你渡过难关。。你怎么能放弃。。
爸爸都崩溃了。。你怎么忍心看到他这样。。
我还以为只有戏会这么演。。果然当医生走出来时,我们还真的哭了。。
没办法接受刚出院的你就这样画上一个句号

爸爸说你是世上最好最伟大的爸爸了。。
我说你是世上最好最伟大的阿公了。。。
好想再吃你做的菜,你做的饭,你做的每一样东西。。我都喜欢。
虽然你离开我们才8 天,大家还仿佛听到你在喊我们吃饭的声音。。
也更想你了。。
爸爸每天都在想你。。都在提起你。。
每当想到你心都特别的痛。。痛到哭了。。
是你害我每天每天都在想你。。
是你害我变得像个哭包。。

昨天是你出现在我梦里吧。。
忘了你说什么。。但你也在想我吧。。
你的背还会痒吗?要我帮你察药吗?
不要再跌到了。。会很痛。。我们也会痛。。
你好吗?
我真的很想你。。
保重了




Saturday, September 24, 2011

心痛!


前几天,眼皮不知为何一直跳。。仿佛意味着有什么事情会发生,也不知道几时开始我变得那么迷信。。在担心会有什么坏事会发生。。这件事持续了三天。。更让我担心的是星期五的来临
阿公要开刀了。。
好紧长,更害怕,心也揪着痛了起来。。
很可怕!好担心他。。
每天回家他都在提醒我说星期五的到来。。眼里总是翻着泪光看着窗外,虽然这是平常都会看到的情况。。但那几天看了特别伤心。。='(
他在担心。。我知道。。
他比任何人都害怕。。我知道。。
他有很多很多东西都放不下。。一再的叮咛要这个要那个。。
更放不下我们吧。。

日子一天一天逼近,大家更越来越紧张。。
他进医院的那天我眼皮跳的次数比之前来得多,好担心。。讨厌那种感觉。。
补习后,去看了他一眼。。他笑笑的说有点不习惯,今晚睡不着了啦。。大家也微笑了。。因为我们都知道不是因为不习惯。
8点,他赶我们回家。。说他要睡觉了。。
我们就勉强答应了,说好,明天会再来。。
眼睛泛着泪光的他便说了一句让我觉得好心痛:没关系!明天不要来也行。
眼泪都快流下来了。。

隔天,在学校都不能专心。。看着手表。。要12点了。。
他应该要进去了吧。。(眼皮还在跳)
好害怕他会害怕。。
好担心他会担心。。
虽然知道只是个小手术,还是紧张。。好像会很痛。。=(
一放学就马上赶去看。。他还在手术房。。
大家都在外头祈祷。。


等了三四个钟头,他出来了。。
脚包得好大一个。。
很可爱的问了一句:开了吗?
大家放心了。。他笑了。。说不痛没感觉。。

回房后说里面好冷好冷。。

大家陆陆续续都到了。。阿公床边爆满了人。。可见我们家庭有多大吧!XD
过后护士拿了一包东西来,好奇怪。。
三八的我们都围了过去。。
wah!pizza?!
nurse:bukan la!itu dia kaki mia bone。。。
啊!大家都好有默契的退开。。哈哈
都笑开了。。



麻醉药过了后,他开始觉得不舒服。。
翻来翻去的。。不笑了。。
“很痛吗?”
“一点点”他说。。
对从来不喊痛的他来说,那应该很痛吧。。
不知为何我的心又开始痛了起来。。
我又能做些什么呢?真希望可以帮他痛。。分担点。。
他真的很痛。。
我们的心更痛。。



Friday, September 9, 2011

nothing much...



this monday,school assembly...
didn't went late...=D...phew!
i didn't really heard what they're talking in front anyway...
they announced our exam is going to held earlier..
sob....the previous exam just passed 2 weeks ago....
and now gonna suffer again!it's tough!really tough!argh..
the "T6" in class(we called ourselves...lol)always give each others strength or should i say pressure?...lol..wateva...but we did really much for each other because we know...we must score in stpm...i dont really like to compete with each other...i just wana try my best..but maybe for others that's where they find the pressure,a way to make them move on...we have our own ways as we are all special..=)...why T6?hmm...top 6?try to be like a G6?tough 6?talkative 6?bla bla bla...i also dunno...XP just we will stick 2gether whenever we go,study,eat,talk,activities even toilet...lol...
but i just like it!haha...at least there is someone to be with,to talk with...cause these few days i really stress out...maybe everyone of us..
we laugh and make noise in class...so loudly and annoying but we are crying and suffering inside..who knows?

don't stress urself...my friends...
jia you!gambateh!=D

the results had out...one of us must be the top 1..yes!as we promised!
i don't really did well haiz...expected..no hard feeling...XP

Saturday, August 27, 2011

期待。。


yesterday...went neway with them..<3
when we come out...all of us have one 共同点---our voice were the same...yay...haha...
quite sui de was...we cant really find a place to have our dinner...
all restaurant were full house even though it look quite loosely in there...
all malay's fault...(isu sensitif XP) ...they buka puasa that time...
ish! walk around bout half hour...only decide to settle down in station one..
raining that time we bought a nice umbrella...haha...love it...
when we're going back,only realize we haven't capture any photo...
min take out her polaroid...but cant find anyone to help us capture...
at this time,our creative imagination make us burst in laughter...XD
a bit ki siao d...totally no image that time...>.<
but really have fun!=D
noob!XP


so so so looking forward for tonight gathering...
hah...gonna meet again...


Wednesday, August 24, 2011

T0t@LLy F@!L.....

ahh!!!!!!
stress out!!!!
really have to shout out my lungs only the tension will be released...
i never never been that stressful before...
no matter it's myself or the cause of surrounding
i can't control but only can avoid....
can't really stand how people look at me like i'm a pro
i really NOT!
urgh..."mind ur attitude please!" this words always remind me that i really not tat clever....
the test that just over really proved that i'm stupid...
how many works should i do to improve myself?it's as much as a mountain high books that could make my study a tough way...
haiz....our aim are STPM....not test...our teacher said...
fine!i wont take that so seriously anyway...
P.S.{can't imagine how worst will the result be...really will down}


blabla....
to release stress...WE are going to meet up again...
our promise...as we are buddies...=D
many thing to talk and gossip....topic will never end...
that is the only moment that study will never interrupt me
so after exam....all of us are fully book...haha...
thank god i have them....<3




Friday, July 22, 2011

R3C3NTLY...



Have been disappear for few weeks...
lol...busy ar...(like many function..>.<)

Good news and bad news come together make me feel hard to express...
urh!sometimes ....
so just let's talk bout the merry moment we had these days...=)

firstly,ah siang's birthday!met buddies again!
haha...really is one month once..<3
the thing that disappoint me was cant follow them after that..
thought could talk more..=(
sunday,they came again with ming ying for basketball + swim..=P
thought would like last time play bb together
but it's just different when playing with different ppl..
hope will gather to play bb next time...=D


this morning we red group got the victory...
haha...again it's the tug of war...wohoo!
so "high" nia...
last victory match was with form six teammate...
aha!that was the "highest"!
muaks...love that feeling so much!



NEXT!the next match coming soon...
the match we are waiting since form 4...
basketball!yay!
afternoon they came to practice...hah...
we take it so seriously nia...
so so so ngam we all wear the same shirt...
not pakat de lor...that's really is mo qi!...
all of us were shock when saw each other...






2mr is the day...we are prepare for this!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

L@T3!

i hate to wait...

i really mean it...

the one who's late is unforgivable...

i have no patient

it's wasting my time....

time is gold did u heard that before?

so.....i hate myself...

i'm the one who's late...

what for being late huh?

bla!
i'm famous to be late!
not kidding...it's serious...
anyway,i don't really know why....
MAYBE...i say maybe....i love sleeping...LOL....
tehee....paiseh ya....
i don't really mean to late...but u know lar...i can't control...
just like this week...
i've been late to school twice...>.<
the 1st time i'm late bout...5 minutes...
ok hor...not that bad la...
the 2nd time is TODAY!
urgh!the most serious one...
i'm late bout half an hour...means that i reached school at 8am...
(haha..)..迟到好过没到嘛!
the most sui one was the very 1st assembly since school reopen for f6 was held today
huiyo!sui dao!
caught spot check!hate that....aiz...forget bout that...
everyone watched at me like the whole universe had stopped at the moment when i stepped into the hall...sia sui!
LOL!又不是第一次!看屁啦!XP

shouldn't go to school this morning...
but sure many thing to do...sure will miss something important...so i went!
anyway school should forgive those who's late,because they came at last...they choose to face the consequences so bravely...
in the contrary,the one who's absent should be punish...they escaped...


(duh!this is the voice out of the belated)



Saturday, June 18, 2011

R@ND0M


blablabla~
feel really bored and sien this few days...
life have become a bit consistent...do same thing everyday...
and really feel like gonna get sick if this continue...
tired to read non-stop...tired to think
non-stop...tired even when sitting down watching movie...urh!..
never have any time to rest....
or maybe i'm weak in managing time...bla~

but...the only thing i can do is only study...
LOL...sien right?...yea i thought of that too....
SO....we hang out!


the first one was band gathering.....


hmm...that is after we having our study group...
just have lunch and fooling around with alvin's camera and laptop...
have fun anyway...
and gonna meet up again on saturday...for the hues of music--band's concert...


continue after concert...gone MCD!gone till midnight woo~...XP



yesterday...went to qb to have dinner with buddies...
maybe it's a farewell for ching ee...since she's going to be a teacher soon...XD
gone to friday!the price would like...fuyoh!

spend time with pauline,pi,ce and st chatting and shop and even play in qb untill 9pm...
gone out whole day...wow!meet min and her family too...=)...


untill today morning...have breakfast with wen fei loh....haha...dim sum again...and that pi...totally forget bout this...sleep until we finish having our breakfast...>.<....anyway...we are still that siao....we are still having that gossip style...we are still BUDDIES!


many thing had changed after all of us graduate...but the only remain is friend...appreciate that...=D