Wonder

As time flies , I realized many things have to change. It really had changed, relationship especially ~ if we don't get to manage it well, anything would happen like you will become strangers or even hater. Of course I'm not saying that I am hating someone or someone hated me (em .. I dunno maybe?) it's just a kind of feeling .

I am wondering if everyone feel the same way but I found myself keep hanging out with friends when I'm back from studies. It feel like some sort of mission to complete when I'm back. Sometimes I may found myself being annoying in a group chat because keep suggesting when to hang out, and no one replies.. The thing that I'm so damn frustrated of! No reply! At least a "no" mayb? So yeah I'm annoying ! I should keep quiet for sometimes and live my own life. 

I watched a Drama just now story was about 5 secondary friends growing up until their working life. Many issues happened among them but still there is one person that wanted everyone to be reunited and at least meet each other once in a month. At the end ended up sitting at the big table waiting for those never coming friends. Sadness overload~ maybe this will happens in real life or maybe in my life. 

I have a lot of girl friends so.. When I hang out , there's always girls in the picture . Another issue merged, people keep asking are u a lesbian why don't u go get a boy friend . What the... Is this something that I can control? =.= I'm really speechless . Maybe because I'm too ugly or too fat. By the way I'm trying hard on my weight but hah.. Motivation comes and goes so it make my weight fluctuates wtf! I need permanent motivation! 😭 lets start that again when I gone back uni.

Aih .. If and only if my hair grows thicker, body and legs get slimmer. 💪 (wishes) like forever!

Yeah relieved ! Because Facebook had too many ppl, Twitter don't allow me to type much, can't find a suitable insta photo to fit in everything , I still love to blog about my thought! 

No one knows I'm here~

Yeah ! It had been two years and as expected, blog will eventually be eliminated by the trend. Anyway, as there is a place for me to split out then it's enough.

        Em..University life is so not what I expected .It is really a pre-society-exposure place. I started realize that since my second year which is this semester. During my first year, I was so damn naive and think that everything was prepared, I can count on my friend if I don't know, those burdening thing try to avoid, I am still a little girl acting like a princess in home. PUI! okay, I know I'm wrong~ 

        

       My second year started and I got myself in an event. Lucky or not I was chosen to be the programmer with Stella. This was my very first time to participate in such event and also be a programmer.Challenging huh~ What I can say was I learnt a lot from this and I gain friendship. What I lost was my sleep time but I would say it's worth it!

       Actually before starting to type out this, I planned to write a whole long page of words.But in the end I would just want to conclude everything in short. I really feel sorry for those seniors that guide us along the way~ they are really good in person and their brain are really smart! Their ability had transcend us way too much. I had disappoint them and overlooked their feeling. They helped us so much and I'm just thinking how to complete my task as a programmer. Felt so awful when they give us the feedback. So sorry~ I should look at things more holistically. 

       After this event , I've grown up a lot. Thanks for everything and sorry for the mistake made. Copy what my buddy told me--people always learn from mistake, I will do my best if I still have the chance ^^ {feeling determined}

Here is those 共患难的战友们 and cute bunch of juniors...love them so much! <3 comment-3--="">

The New Page Of Life

         Hey yo! I'm 20 now and going to be 21 few days later. Whao right? Time flies..I'm a Uni student now studying Occupational Therapy in UKM. Oh ya right! I accepted the faith lol..

        What is OT? haha...everyone asked! EVERYONE! like not really have ppl know bout this course in Malaysia. It is well-known in other countries instead. Hmm...as seniors said if u found the person asking curiously and like they really wana know bout this course,u will automatically blaaaa all out what's OT. Conversely, if that person like "yer,what's that,never heard before"-face I would just tell "aha, it's something like physiotherapy" and end of topic {never wanted to explain much, or should i say i'm lazy}. 

          OT is a profession that help their patient to recover their independence in life. Their life include activities of daily living, work, and leisure. While ADL include a lot like sleep, education, eat,dressing, bowel and bladder management... then what OT do is to help them adapt to the environment with their available ability,or modify the environment to adapt their physical condition. Roughly like that..hmm.. so i think it's really different from physio lo.. Yup! that's what i'm studying.=)  I found this course really interesting after I've further understanding about it. It need our creativity to cure the patient. I like the session when we are asked to feel the condition of the patient own-self. Pretending to be an OKU make us learn a lot. How people look at us and how we feel and of course the difficulty in carry out a so-call-normal daily activity. 

         About uni life, I'm ok with it la actually. The only thing is I'll homesick. Aih! It's never been that serious until I've gone home last few days. Or maybe I'm stressed out. Feel like crying whenever i think of my mom, what happen huh? Ms Ho said i will get used to it second year later. Hmm..i dont know. Everyone tell me, my uni life look exciting and enjoy when they see me in Facebook photos. Hah,yeah...the activities was quite fun. Who knows what's behind? I need to catch up with all the studies and write the report for every activities so that i can claim marks and merit for that in order to stay in the hostel next year. Damn! i hate that! I just wana enjoy but what it seems is i took part to get marks.LOL!

       

       From the day i came back hostel, i started counting down. I still have 19 days until my first sem final end and i can go back home for Chinese new year! yay! I need to study study study right now!!! yah! gambateh!

Who knows your heart is crying?

Hi blog,I'm here again to pour out my thought.

Thanks for being here.

WTH am i talking?

Okay,fine!

I get a offer from UKM! {YES!}

But,It's not speech but occupational therapy.{What?!}

Yea,right!It's OT,i never had imagine i will get into this field although i put it as my second choice as i have much expectation in speech.Haih!

What to say?I need to accept it...

Erm..seniors came to brief us about University life and courses and other more.

He told me SLP is actually really hard and need a lots of patient and passion.{I know}

But i don't know,I hesitate .

Should i change my course to SLP or just accept the faith?

Yeah, I feel like crying when i can't make a decision.

University,looking forward to and feel sad to goodbye.

Everyone is going to their Uni respectively and even fly overseas which we actually can't meet them for a few months or years.

So,I'm trying hard to get all of them gathered.

Yeah,I never make one success,sad to say.

I know,all of u are busy,busy with work with preparation with family with other friends.

I know,I'm not the VIP.

I just....want everything to look the same as last time,just once,just once!

I'm really giving it up,because I think things never get perfect .

That's it.Don't ever be an organizer unless you are a GOOD person.

I'm tired.Just let it be...I think i need prepare my stuff to Uni instead of worrying this stuff as nobody care.

I'm actually preparing,applying all those stuff and busy printing and certified stuff.

Quite busy though.

And I don't wana see U again...shortly.

Hope everything will end soon.

I mean EVERYTHING.PLEASE!

I'm gonna start a new life next month!

I found my ambition.

Okay!As i mentioned earlier i have a bad feeling about my result.

That's right,my sixth sense was always right.

Couldn't really get 4 flats or even 4 As,so i just faced the fact as i'm a typical libra.(peace)

Emo for the whole day then slap myself and think of what should i apply for uni.

Search for teacher advise and those books and website,finally figured out.

I like kids stuff,not that "kids stuff" but the other kids stuff.

U know what i mean?hah...kids stuff like talking playing around with them and look into their world .

And i've actually think about psychology but then erm...nevermind.

So,i've chose speech which cover both of my interest. Perfect right? haha...

Getting the offer to interview of USM for that course was expected but then after seeing the real offer still stunned me. Thanks but i prefer UKM more. 

Still i'm going for the interview tomorrow ,hope to get more experience in talking and also give it a try in case UKM doesn't accept me {:( touch wood}

Crossed finger!

Then i would like to talk about my job currently.

Learn a lot though.Love it.And thank god i met a great boss.

I've learnt about service,speaking in a polite and respect way, my english actually improved quite a lot as i need to talk to those foreigner and those indian, malay,english educated peepo etc.

blablabla..and most important eye stuff,contact lens,hard lens,glaucoma,etc.

Meeting a boss that willing to teach and explain everything in details and patiently was soooooo hard,but i got it!haha..anyway i appreciate everything she have done for me.

She even give me a helping hand in consulting bout speech and dietetics stuff.And also calming down my mom for the course i chose as she was worried.Aha..there are too much to thank!Kamsahamnida Miss Ho!

haha...she never know what i'm talking when i said that,she asked"why u kam me?"LMAO

she get me to try everything,1st screening children,then bring me to the talk about lens,do me glasses,then put  me on a semihard lens.She said like that you only can said that you worked in an optical shop before.Okay,that's cool.She actually taught me how to be a nicer person indirectly through the way she treat the suppliers ,customer and workers. Haih,what else can i say?She praise me in front of my mom,my god! Making her so proud. Whoa,anyway i that's lots of thing i missed out maybe, but everything will be in my mind and heart.Maybe someday i can be a good employer. ;)

人生的另一个阶段

嗨！我的日记。

好多事情憋在我心里哦，只有告诉你了。

就从我自己说起吧，最近发现每走到哪都有好多人看着我。我都在想使我长得很奇怪吗？还是我脸上沾了些东西。心里突然自豪了起来，难道是我变漂亮了！百痴这本来就是事实。。（喂！哈哈开玩笑啦。。认真点）好啦，erm..我自认是我改变了，也许吧！其实我以前都会避免与陌生人甚至是朋友眼神接触，可自从我从台湾回来后有了不知从何而来的自信，开始抬头看人了，是看透人哦哈哈，是看着他们的眼睛。所以咯，我才会发现他们在看着我。对！我告诉自己我是时候改变了，要有信心也勇敢点，快要上大学了，要开始靠自己咯！加油吧！

说到上大学，台湾大学好大好漂亮！超想到那念书的不过我还没找到我所谓的人生目标，怎么办叻。。我再想想我应该会往医科方面去发展，也应该别无选择了吧，就这样吧。我有想象我上大学的生活是怎样的，哈！开始了，发白日梦。。我要每天早上去运动要不就参加与球类有关的社团，努力达到目标，晚上奋发图强，放假尽情去玩，开开心心的享受大学生活。是很简单吧，应该可以实现吧这小小的愿望。保佑保佑！只要遇到一群很可爱的朋友就好了。

下一个，我又要开始工作了。说起来还蛮好笑的，我走进一间眼镜店买隐形眼镜，与老板说着说着他就问说要来工作吗？很意外的我答应了。哈！就试试吧！三月开工了，加油吧，希望可以有收获咯。

I'M FREE!

6-12-2012

the last day of STPM..

The end of my life of form 6

hmm..should i be happy now..shouting and running everywhere like a siao lang..

haha...actually i did that few days before the exam end and start counting down..

and now..i have no feeling or any happiness..arrr..pathetic huh..

i don't know..erm..just,there are some worries about my result..

there are so many ppl talking bout 4 flat..

I don't really have the confident after the first paper end..

I try to work hard on the other papers then..but i don't know..

It's just doesn't seems right..my hand and my mind didn't work that smoothly

just have 不好的预感

pray pray pray..

ok end of this topic...

talk about my plan after this then..

hmm...

gonna start to search for university..

then find out what is my ambition..LOL

the most immediate stuff is accompany mom shopping or go wherever she want

haih,as i know she keep asking me wana go here go there..but i just ignore cuz really not in mood that time

so now,it time to pay back!

Then..gather back all friends..outing, sleepover ,gossip mayb?

then go find cafe or food that we talk bout all the time..."crepe" i want!

next is plan Taiwan's trip!yay!the most interesting part..hehe

lots of thing gonna discuss and pack..gonna enjoy it much

erhem..someone is gonna be jealous bout this.."wink"

aha...gonna keep fit too..hehe..

jog every morning!that's what i desire for..

if not i'm gonna end up become a big fat chicks in Taiwan..

last but not least...

i'm going to work...as what my mom want me to do..

erm..i dunno..it doesn't sound good..

after my first job,i swear,i will never work as a clerk..

it's boring and sleepy...ish..

thinking to be a teacher mayb?temporary la...

em em em...

ow ow!i'm going hong kong in june..weee...shopping again..

ermm..then mayb after this i'm going to prepare myself  to face my STPM results

argh...pray pray pray..

=)

Hey yo

Here I come again..

Remember this picture...we were always there to fool around in school

Hmm...miss that...

Although we still fool around these day...

The thought in our mind were different,totally different!

Last time fun was fun...it's really relax and excited

Now,fun is relieve,stree/tension release...

Burden!i can feel that load...even though we are having fun

During the time,we are still thinking that what or how can we do after that to replace those study time which we had already wasted for fun..

I'm stuck.

Trying to have a break but no!

I spend my time on the sofa in front of the tv..

Lol!bang me on the wall...

I can't take my eye off U,TV!

Can u get off of my life temporary?

Ahhhh...

Waste my time!

Aih but still u attracted me!ish!