Monday, September 25, 2017

Leaving

Yeah~ Graduated with Honour, with Distinction~ wow.. Thank God! Never expect that but keep fighting for that. ;)

Appreciate and miss everything in University Life.

I'm always that kind of person who worried so much and was always afraid to change new environment.. it's working life now ~ omg~ new place new people like how it was 4 years back when i started my Uni life. Looking forward to it as it will be fun, worried about it as people are new and no one there when i needed (i mean close family).

Hopefully everything goes smoothly and got people guide me please~ keep feeling I will really be alone started from now on. OR should I say I should start independent now, bear my own responsibility, face critics all by my own :( not protective environment anymore~ no more mistake, no more stupidity~ Just thinking of it make me feel depress. It's Pre-working syndrome i guess. Sorry for all those negativity, I just need to release it~ keeping it to myself was quite hard ~

People said it's good to think of something advanced so that you could get prepared for it. I am! But people also said that I worried too much~ Argh! It's tiring though~

Thanks that I have friends around that I could rely on and talk to~ Appreciate that I have supportive family to make me stronger. I just wana stay at home though, that comfort zone; stay in hometown, that merry place;stay with family, that stressless home. I am not sure whether I've chosen a good company and working environment, the things I'm sure is I need to be happy of what I'm working with and be sincere with every person I encounter. Put in effort and do the best for every patient.

I hate how people judge my profession with money and pay. I hate how people doesn't value our effort. I hate people doesn't understand my profession and judge with what they think it is. Don't ever take people kindness for demand, it's because you are worth it thus we put in effort but not because I must. You are worth it because you believe in me and I believe in you. Things goes around like that~

Finger crossed this company could be another family for me .


Wednesday, February 8, 2017

New year! 2017

It's final year and half year left til graduation. Chinese New Year just passed so it's time for me to go back to settle all my thesis stuff. So annoying but I need to get it done !
I need someone to motivate and stressed me out to get things work. What a shame~ always get lazy and I could actually sit in front of the TV whole day. Know that it's unproductive but still doing it ๐Ÿ™„
Tonight has a gathering with the gang, and next day morning will be leaving to KL. It's time to get apart again. Hate this feeling. Keep thinking am I going to go through this later when I work. Will I work in Penang or will I work else where? ๐Ÿ˜” Money matters~
It's Malaysian culture problem that "manja" me to be so spoon-feed isn't it? Everything need to be arranged , need to be pushed, so useless! Omg~ another problem is blaming others instead of ownself. One of my friend told me that, making me aware that I really act that way. Thus, every time when I try to speak on someone, I reflected.
So ! Should jump off from my comfort zone and slap that butt to work out stuff! Hmph! Right!

I had attended a few gathering last week. It's really nice to meet all of them up. So so so appreciate we still could update each other and talk like last time ! It's hard to gather everyone but at least we gathered. That's enough though~ as I'm not sure if could still have those attendance later on. ๐Ÿ™Š

Owh ya had started my 2016 unfinished resolution on 14th Dec2016 ๐Ÿ˜‚ -- to workout everyday, then let's see the result 3 months later. It had been almost 2 months, not really have any effect on the weight reading ~ but just tummy not that protruding, those thighs get fitter and muscular. Anyway, should try harder ๐Ÿ˜› to fit in my suite ๐Ÿ˜‰ That motivating suit! Wheeeee~

Let's get thing done Sui Sui and perfect kay! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป

Monday, June 6, 2016

Hi Jo

            Hello Blog, it has been a year though. I'm now in 3rd year of uni study. Hmm.. grown up yo~ physically I mean (muahaha) Anyway, it's another slacky day.
           I'm home by the way, at penang. Just finish posting in Hopital Seremban and it was a tough one but I've gone through it~ wohooo~ Just want to tell myself: GOOD JOB! Although the grade I got was not as good as previous one, I've just learnt so much of their passion in the profession. This actually made me thought a lot of my future career. Hmm... should I go straight to Singapore for like a few years to gain experience or serve our government instead then to open own centre or hmm... apply for private? I don't know~ So i actually should just focus on getting graduate from degree first?
           My thought this few days~ was overwhelming. Trying to avoid thinking but there are friends that started coming out for works, already working and even started own business. My parents even asking when are we graduating, working and actually at their age, they are about to retired~ Phew! No stress no stress~ Besides, I dunno why, I just feel like I'm a big spender lol lol... my friends said so too~ maybe yes? haha, am I too late to realize? erm.. nevermind at least I finally realise XP. Alright, start saving kay~~~ Oh ya another good news today is that I got the approval for the application of fund to Japan (muahaha..proud ma proud ma). Will save some money lorrrr at least XP.
        Few days later, I'm going to face my finals already and I didn't even touch a pages of books. Still relaxing at home and don't feel like doing anything~ Like ANYTHING! Still have tons of report to complete argh!! I just want to lay on the sofa and watch TV, lay on the bed and slack whole day~~~

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Wonder

As time flies , I realized many things have to change. It really had changed, relationship especially ~ if we don't get to manage it well, anything would happen like you will become strangers or even hater. Of course I'm not saying that I am hating someone or someone hated me (em .. I dunno maybe?) it's just a kind of feeling .
I am wondering if everyone feel the same way but I found myself keep hanging out with friends when I'm back from studies. It feel like some sort of mission to complete when I'm back. Sometimes I may found myself being annoying in a group chat because keep suggesting when to hang out, and no one replies.. The thing that I'm so damn frustrated of! No reply! At least a "no" mayb? So yeah I'm annoying ! I should keep quiet for sometimes and live my own life. 
I watched a Drama just now story was about 5 secondary friends growing up until their working life. Many issues happened among them but still there is one person that wanted everyone to be reunited and at least meet each other once in a month. At the end ended up sitting at the big table waiting for those never coming friends. Sadness overload~ maybe this will happens in real life or maybe in my life. 

I have a lot of girl friends so.. When I hang out , there's always girls in the picture . Another issue merged, people keep asking are u a lesbian why don't u go get a boy friend . What the... Is this something that I can control? =.= I'm really speechless . Maybe because I'm too ugly or too fat. By the way I'm trying hard on my weight but hah.. Motivation comes and goes so it make my weight fluctuates wtf! I need permanent motivation! ๐Ÿ˜ญ lets start that again when I gone back uni.
Aih .. If and only if my hair grows thicker, body and legs get slimmer. ๐Ÿ’ช (wishes) like forever!

Yeah relieved ! Because Facebook had too many ppl, Twitter don't allow me to type much, can't find a suitable insta photo to fit in everything , I still love to blog about my thought! 

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

No one knows I'm here~

Yeah ! It had been two years and as expected, blog will eventually be eliminated by the trend. Anyway, as there is a place for me to split out then it's enough.

        Em..University life is so not what I expected .It is really a pre-society-exposure place. I started realize that since my second year which is this semester. During my first year, I was so damn naive and think that everything was prepared, I can count on my friend if I don't know, those burdening thing try to avoid, I am still a little girl acting like a princess in home. PUI! okay, I know I'm wrong~ 
        
       My second year started and I got myself in an event. Lucky or not I was chosen to be the programmer with Stella. This was my very first time to participate in such event and also be a programmer.Challenging huh~ What I can say was I learnt a lot from this and I gain friendship. What I lost was my sleep time but I would say it's worth it!

       Actually before starting to type out this, I planned to write a whole long page of words.But in the end I would just want to conclude everything in short. I really feel sorry for those seniors that guide us along the way~ they are really good in person and their brain are really smart! Their ability had transcend us way too much. I had disappoint them and overlooked their feeling. They helped us so much and I'm just thinking how to complete my task as a programmer. Felt so awful when they give us the feedback. So sorry~ I should look at things more holistically. 

       After this event , I've grown up a lot. Thanks for everything and sorry for the mistake made. Copy what my buddy told me--people always learn from mistake, I will do my best if I still have the chance ^^ {feeling determined}

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Friday, December 27, 2013

The New Page Of Life

         Hey yo! I'm 20 now and going to be 21 few days later. Whao right? Time flies..I'm a Uni student now studying Occupational Therapy in UKM. Oh ya right! I accepted the faith lol..

        What is OT? haha...everyone asked! EVERYONE! like not really have ppl know bout this course in Malaysia. It is well-known in other countries instead. Hmm...as seniors said if u found the person asking curiously and like they really wana know bout this course,u will automatically blaaaa all out what's OT. Conversely, if that person like "yer,what's that,never heard before"-face I would just tell "aha, it's something like physiotherapy" and end of topic {never wanted to explain much, or should i say i'm lazy}. 

          OT is a profession that help their patient to recover their independence in life. Their life include activities of daily living, work, and leisure. While ADL include a lot like sleep, education, eat,dressing, bowel and bladder management... then what OT do is to help them adapt to the environment with their available ability,or modify the environment to adapt their physical condition. Roughly like that..hmm.. so i think it's really different from physio lo.. Yup! that's what i'm studying.=)  I found this course really interesting after I've further understanding about it. It need our creativity to cure the patient. I like the session when we are asked to feel the condition of the patient own-self. Pretending to be an OKU make us learn a lot. How people look at us and how we feel and of course the difficulty in carry out a so-call-normal daily activity. 

         About uni life, I'm ok with it la actually. The only thing is I'll homesick. Aih! It's never been that serious until I've gone home last few days. Or maybe I'm stressed out. Feel like crying whenever i think of my mom, what happen huh? Ms Ho said i will get used to it second year later. Hmm..i dont know. Everyone tell me, my uni life look exciting and enjoy when they see me in Facebook photos. Hah,yeah...the activities was quite fun. Who knows what's behind? I need to catch up with all the studies and write the report for every activities so that i can claim marks and merit for that in order to stay in the hostel next year. Damn! i hate that! I just wana enjoy but what it seems is i took part to get marks.LOL!
       
       From the day i came back hostel, i started counting down. I still have 19 days until my first sem final end and i can go back home for Chinese new year! yay! I need to study study study right now!!! yah! gambateh!

Monday, August 5, 2013

Who knows your heart is crying?

Hi blog,I'm here again to pour out my thought.
Thanks for being here.
WTH am i talking?
Okay,fine!
I get a offer from UKM! {YES!}
But,It's not speech but occupational therapy.{What?!}
Yea,right!It's OT,i never had imagine i will get into this field although i put it as my second choice as i have much expectation in speech.Haih!
What to say?I need to accept it...
Erm..seniors came to brief us about University life and courses and other more.
He told me SLP is actually really hard and need a lots of patient and passion.{I know}
But i don't know,I hesitate .
Should i change my course to SLP or just accept the faith?
Yeah, I feel like crying when i can't make a decision.

University,looking forward to and feel sad to goodbye.
Everyone is going to their Uni respectively and even fly overseas which we actually can't meet them for a few months or years.
So,I'm trying hard to get all of them gathered.
Yeah,I never make one success,sad to say.
I know,all of u are busy,busy with work with preparation with family with other friends.
I know,I'm not the VIP.
I just....want everything to look the same as last time,just once,just once!
I'm really giving it up,because I think things never get perfect .
That's it.Don't ever be an organizer unless you are a GOOD person.
I'm tired.Just let it be...I think i need prepare my stuff to Uni instead of worrying this stuff as nobody care.

I'm actually preparing,applying all those stuff and busy printing and certified stuff.
Quite busy though.
And I don't wana see U again...shortly.
Hope everything will end soon.
I mean EVERYTHING.PLEASE!
I'm gonna start a new life next month!



Tuesday, May 7, 2013

I found my ambition.


Okay!As i mentioned earlier i have a bad feeling about my result.
That's right,my sixth sense was always right.
Couldn't really get 4 flats or even 4 As,so i just faced the fact as i'm a typical libra.(peace)
Emo for the whole day then slap myself and think of what should i apply for uni.
Search for teacher advise and those books and website,finally figured out.
I like kids stuff,not that "kids stuff" but the other kids stuff.
U know what i mean?hah...kids stuff like talking playing around with them and look into their world .
And i've actually think about psychology but then erm...nevermind.
So,i've chose speech which cover both of my interest. Perfect right? haha...
Getting the offer to interview of USM for that course was expected but then after seeing the real offer still stunned me. Thanks but i prefer UKM more. 
Still i'm going for the interview tomorrow ,hope to get more experience in talking and also give it a try in case UKM doesn't accept me {:( touch wood}
Crossed finger!

Then i would like to talk about my job currently.
Learn a lot though.Love it.And thank god i met a great boss.
I've learnt about service,speaking in a polite and respect way, my english actually improved quite a lot as i need to talk to those foreigner and those indian, malay,english educated peepo etc.
blablabla..and most important eye stuff,contact lens,hard lens,glaucoma,etc.
Meeting a boss that willing to teach and explain everything in details and patiently was soooooo hard,but i got it!haha..anyway i appreciate everything she have done for me.
She even give me a helping hand in consulting bout speech and dietetics stuff.And also calming down my mom for the course i chose as she was worried.Aha..there are too much to thank!Kamsahamnida Miss Ho!
haha...she never know what i'm talking when i said that,she asked"why u kam me?"LMAO
she get me to try everything,1st screening children,then bring me to the talk about lens,do me glasses,then put  me on a semihard lens.She said like that you only can said that you worked in an optical shop before.Okay,that's cool.She actually taught me how to be a nicer person indirectly through the way she treat the suppliers ,customer and workers. Haih,what else can i say?She praise me in front of my mom,my god! Making her so proud. Whoa,anyway i that's lots of thing i missed out maybe, but everything will be in my mind and heart.Maybe someday i can be a good employer. ;)